I dared myself to fill this stack of paper up with meaningful words, meaningful verbs and meaningful verse but no matter what I write it all feels seemingly worse because my pen is feeling seemingly cursed to repeat the same motions, make the same mistakes and I'd rather trace the same letters, same phrases than just try to embrace a brand new take on writing, a new take on living but with every tale I tell I'm growing more narcissistic with these threadbare words about living being easy. How my hits and kisses make the girlies' knees weak. Someone call a doctor 'cause I've got a sneaking feeling that they have stopped breathing and I've stopped believing.
It's now or never and I've never been better but it's never enough for us to get by on. It's now or never and I'm better than ever but there is still a lack of time and inspiration. It's now or never and we think we're so clever but all there is to do is increase our bar tab and tell our hearts that they'll just have to wait.
As of late I have been awash in a sea of daytime TV, teen movies and Friday night repeats but between these lessons and meaningless feelings I have been healing. Right now I'm reeling from the lack of attention, attention. Make way for pretension 'cause I've got a shovel and I've got intentions to forcefully unearth the time I was spending but then I quit digging and went back to penning these...
All there is to do is increase our bar tab
and tell our hearts that things really aren't bad
and send our best to almost departed
and tell our arms that they'll just have to...
released October 4, 2005
Produced by Dave Rand and Matt DiStefano.
Engineered, Mixed and Mastered by Dave Rand.
Additional Vocals by Aaron Scott.